I know this is weird, but I miss singing. I mean really belting out the tunes and SINGING.  I don't know if this is permanent, but I have already dropped a good fifth in my range and am very nearly heading toward a full octave nose dive... That and it kinda hurts to sing full force anymore.

Today I was straining to sing along with a wonderful old bluesy tune, just for the pure joy of it ~ and even with as rough as my voice is, my sweet Nathan said, "wow mom, you sing really pretty". I nearly started to cry.

Of course, I won't go into the other day when I was looking PARTICULARLY beat and haggard and he told me I was "ugly on the outside but pretty on the inside". I knew what he meant, but Carly laughingly made the comment , "I'm never having kids....".  I just laughed because he is SO innocent and trying SO hard to give compliments. He really is a sweet boy.

tired, but grateful for a good day.

The title about said it all. I am just so anxious to get this going again! It seemed to take forever to get the ball rolling, and now ( thanks to prayers and miracles) everything has just fallen into place.

BTW , before I forget, I wanted to help get the word out...

Don't worry,  it wasn't pureed chicken....

 ok, back to the blog...



I saw an acquaintance today that I had lost contact with. She made the comment that I looked like I had been loosing weight. (and those of you following this, please don't worry, all things are relative and I still have a LOOOOOOONNNNNG way to go before I am considered malnourished...) I jokingly old her thanks, but I don't think I would recommend my diet plan. She was so cute then, she asked if it was that lemonade diet (its the fad around here right now). I was wicked and said, " Nope, I am on the cancer diet.". I was trying to be silly, but she threw her arms around me and with tears in her eyes told me she was just recovering from breast cancer. I felt about knee high to a grass hopper then and actually shared a momentary bonding ~ with no flip answers, no pretending, no facade. Just pure understanding. Weird what can bring people together sometimes huh?...