This site is to help anyone who might have esophageal cancer get another point of view ~ Also it is to help my family know what the crap is going on when I don't call for days at a time... loves and kisses from a sick chick. UPDATE: I am no longer a sick chick! Now I don't call for days at a time just cause I am out and about and raising my boys :)
Showing posts with label my health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my health. Show all posts
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Well, I can swallow any darn thing I want now (excluding car parts or carpet remnants, but you know what I mean...) but the trick is to make sure I eat tiny meals all through the day. If I eat too much at one setting I actually get really uncomfortable. I also have learned that I really aught to drink liquids at a different time than a meal so my stomophagus doesn't get filled to quickly. I also have trouble with high refined sugars or high fat items as it either gives me gas or makes my tummy hurt ( I am assuming because those items are harder to digest?). I just have to get used to a different lifestyle of eating. I really am OK with that, and to tell you the truth, it is a much healthier way to live anyway. I just have to figure this out and still get my calories I need in.
As far as how i am feeling these days, we have a trip to Disneyland coming up so I must not be doing too bad! Thanks Bub, we are so happy with our Christmas present! I will post pics as soon as I get them. :)
BTW, just for the record, I would totally win the "my scars are better than your scars" competition thingy guys love to do. Today I am posting pics to show just my bruises from the last balloon animal party. I guess because of the Chemo I did, my veins are a mess. I am now what the nurses like to call a "hard stick". They like to roll around and go flat and when one is finally wrangled into submission, they like to imitate tires running over a spike strip. I am told it is because they have such thin walls now. I took pics so I could show off before they fade completely. Which BTW is a wonderful thing that it is fading... both on my arm AND from memory...
Saturday, December 25, 2010
First of all to everyone, I hope you had a wonderful and blessed Christmas. I don't think I could have had a better Christmas. I played Santa once the kids fell asleep, cooked ALL Christmas dinner and even got the sea of loose gift wrap all wrangled into the trash! I am SO dang proud of myself.
Right now, I am sitting at this computer just enjoying the sounds of a wonderful Christmas winding down. Jonah and Ben are sitting cross legged completely transfixed by a Tom and Jerry Christmas Special. And . they are NOT fighting!!! See, Christmas miracles DO happen!
Daniel and Nathan are sitting in the huge pop up tent their Aunt Emeline sent them looking for Invisimals. Invisimals are these really cool little critters that kids get to "find" using a PSP (Play Station Portable) and a special camera thingy. (That is the technical term BTW) . The PSP was made possible thanks todad searching everywhere for a really good refurbished one um I mean Santa.
I really love refurnished stuff. I mean stuff from Santa. OK OK Lets drop the act, the kids aren't listening anymore. I know some people might wonder about the reliability of refurbished stuff, but heck, if you want to get technical, pretty much everything we own is "refurbished" sooner or later. It's called having kids.
Toothbrush + lotion bottle + flush before mom or dad can dive for them = toilet refurbished (We have learned that Cary can swap out a toilet in 15 minutes flat). Dishwasher + WAYYY to much soap and a wooden spoon crammed into the spinny thing ( boy I am FULL of technical terms today) = refurbished dishwasher. See? It's starting to become a theme... Let's do one more... Not that we have a shortage, I am just getting tired of typing... Desktop + glass of milk + 4 boys playing a really exciting online game = you guessed it ~ refurbished computer. We just figure we will get a head start with the PSP. AND it has the added bonus being WAY cheaper. Good thing Cary is good with a screwdriver and fixes electronics for a living. Just don't hand him a refurbished nail gun. You might be wondering why there is a boy or two pinned by the back of their shirts to the drywall with a 12 penny nail.
Right now, I am sitting at this computer just enjoying the sounds of a wonderful Christmas winding down. Jonah and Ben are sitting cross legged completely transfixed by a Tom and Jerry Christmas Special. And . they are NOT fighting!!! See, Christmas miracles DO happen!
Daniel and Nathan are sitting in the huge pop up tent their Aunt Emeline sent them looking for Invisimals. Invisimals are these really cool little critters that kids get to "find" using a PSP (Play Station Portable) and a special camera thingy. (That is the technical term BTW) . The PSP was made possible thanks to
I really love refurnished stuff. I mean stuff from Santa. OK OK Lets drop the act, the kids aren't listening anymore. I know some people might wonder about the reliability of refurbished stuff, but heck, if you want to get technical, pretty much everything we own is "refurbished" sooner or later. It's called having kids.
Toothbrush + lotion bottle + flush before mom or dad can dive for them = toilet refurbished (We have learned that Cary can swap out a toilet in 15 minutes flat). Dishwasher + WAYYY to much soap and a wooden spoon crammed into the spinny thing ( boy I am FULL of technical terms today) = refurbished dishwasher. See? It's starting to become a theme... Let's do one more... Not that we have a shortage, I am just getting tired of typing... Desktop + glass of milk + 4 boys playing a really exciting online game = you guessed it ~ refurbished computer. We just figure we will get a head start with the PSP. AND it has the added bonus being WAY cheaper. Good thing Cary is good with a screwdriver and fixes electronics for a living. Just don't hand him a refurbished nail gun. You might be wondering why there is a boy or two pinned by the back of their shirts to the drywall with a 12 penny nail.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
I am TERRIBLE about writing now, just because I am out enjoying life. I feel great these days and think it is stupendous that feeling good has become the norm! I am still doing the feeding tube thing, but I am able to eat soft foods now. No meats, yeast breads, fresh veggies or anything crunchy, but the world feels like there is a multitude of possibilities out there. I am just having a blast figuring it all out.
I do still feel a bit like I am in the twilight zone still though, because I am counting calories to keep them UP. How weird is that?! I will most likely need to work with a nutritionist to get all the way there, but that feeding tube thing and its days of tyranny are coming to an end (oooo I feel like such an anarchist!).
In all honesty, I still struggle with that lactose intolerance thing but with lact-aid, lactose free milk, and lactose free nutrition drinks (and yes I found some of those) I am learning how to deal. Just know if you ever go somewhere with me and I bolt for the bathroom, I am trying to spare all of us some major unpleasantness...
These days, I have been fully keeping up on my laundry and housework (holy crap I AM an alien!!!!), doing all the kids homework and therapies, taking the dog on daily walks and playing fetch with him at the local dog park, shaved and bathed him, made chocolate chip cookies to put in the freezer so I can warm them up when the kids get home from school and even made shaved ice for the kids when they were feeling bad about not having "snow days" in Southern California AND I have made dinner every night of the week (except once when I asked Cary to do it, just cause I knew he would and I was feeling lazy).
Life is good.
Jo Marie (remember she is the surgeons nurse practitioner) showed me her psychic side once again today and called me about 20 minutes before I had time set aside to call her! It really is almost freaky how she does that. Anyway, we talked about getting my 6 month PET scan set up. Can you believe it has been 6 months since the surgery?! I know, it blows my mind too!
Anyway, after the PET scan, I will go in to see Dr Soukiasian again and hopefully we will discuss a plan to get said evil feeding tube out. Ok so maybe it isn't EVIL per say, and it has kept me alive just fine. It isn't painful (except when I rip stitches, but then that is kinda my own fault), it just slows me down (...pooooor maligned feeding tube) . I am just so anxious to get the silly thing gone so I can take Jonah to Legoland for his birthday. If it isn't gone by February (oh. Dear. Lord. forbid that) I am gonna take him anyway.
I do still feel a bit like I am in the twilight zone still though, because I am counting calories to keep them UP. How weird is that?! I will most likely need to work with a nutritionist to get all the way there, but that feeding tube thing and its days of tyranny are coming to an end (oooo I feel like such an anarchist!).
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Life is good.
Jo Marie (remember she is the surgeons nurse practitioner) showed me her psychic side once again today and called me about 20 minutes before I had time set aside to call her! It really is almost freaky how she does that. Anyway, we talked about getting my 6 month PET scan set up. Can you believe it has been 6 months since the surgery?! I know, it blows my mind too!
Anyway, after the PET scan, I will go in to see Dr Soukiasian again and hopefully we will discuss a plan to get said evil feeding tube out. Ok so maybe it isn't EVIL per say, and it has kept me alive just fine. It isn't painful (except when I rip stitches, but then that is kinda my own fault), it just slows me down (...pooooor maligned feeding tube) . I am just so anxious to get the silly thing gone so I can take Jonah to Legoland for his birthday. If it isn't gone by February (oh. Dear. Lord. forbid that) I am gonna take him anyway.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
I felt awesome today. A bit tired by the end of the day, but another day with NO owies. How cool is that?! If this keeps up, I will be back to my old self in no time. Except hopefully skinnier.
Only I really would NOT recommend the diet plan. Or the "involuntary lap band" as my hubby calls my esophagectomy.
Favorite quote from Halloween, but first some back story...
Jonah will not eat anything he is not familiar with without a big ordeal of doing the whole "thank you bite" thing, and even then it is a big deal. Most moms are Totally. Familiar. with the thank you bite, but for those of you who aren't, it is basically a statement that says if mom went to the trouble of making you food the least you can do is take a bite to say thank you. And if that doesn't work, we go to the no dessert thing. Except I haven't made dessert in a dogs age, so that really doesn't work unless we've got something to back it up.
These are great ways to get kids rooted in hating ANY type of change to try something they might like. Obedience by guilt and bribery. Works for me.
Anywhoo, Last night the kids went to the church's trunk or treat (like trick or treating, but people give out candy from the trunks of their decorated cars). I wasn't gonna INSIST my kid get more cavities, so I did not object when Jonah gave his dad all the candy he had not seen or tasted before.
Cary grinningly commented: "Sometimes I like autism."
Only I really would NOT recommend the diet plan. Or the "involuntary lap band" as my hubby calls my esophagectomy.
Favorite quote from Halloween, but first some back story...
Jonah will not eat anything he is not familiar with without a big ordeal of doing the whole "thank you bite" thing, and even then it is a big deal. Most moms are Totally. Familiar. with the thank you bite, but for those of you who aren't, it is basically a statement that says if mom went to the trouble of making you food the least you can do is take a bite to say thank you. And if that doesn't work, we go to the no dessert thing. Except I haven't made dessert in a dogs age, so that really doesn't work unless we've got something to back it up.
These are great ways to get kids rooted in hating ANY type of change to try something they might like. Obedience by guilt and bribery. Works for me.
Anywhoo, Last night the kids went to the church's trunk or treat (like trick or treating, but people give out candy from the trunks of their decorated cars). I wasn't gonna INSIST my kid get more cavities, so I did not object when Jonah gave his dad all the candy he had not seen or tasted before.
Cary grinningly commented: "Sometimes I like autism."
Friday, October 29, 2010
The great news is that I am bouncing back pretty good right now. I am feeling the best I have in a long time!!!!! (today) I have el-zippo zero pain, so that is excellent and the new stitches Dr. Lo put in are holding great. Not to mention he put more of them this time and so far only one has torn through. Not too bad odds I might add.
AND I cleaned my house !!!! OK, just the downstairs, and I didn't mop, but Hey! I cleaned my house!!!! (this statement deserves the extra exclamation points and rotten sentence structure) Cary even got in the swing of things and shampooed the carpet.
AND I -yes I - cleaned out my fridge! I asked hubby when the last time he cleaned it out was and he said ~~~~ well ~~~~~~~ maybe it's best just to leave what he said to your imagination. I will only reveal that I think I saw something run for cover behind what I assumed was old feta cheese.
The only bummer part is that I am on a completely liquid diet until my next procedure which is scheduled for 2 days before Thanksgiving. Kinda sucky, but if it increases the chances of this third balloon animal adventure being successful, I'll be thrilllllled. I am actually looking forward to eating a big salad. Weird huh. Especially since the hubby made the kids brownies tonight for movie night and I am smelling them. The REALLLYYYY weird part? I am happy just to smell them. I have absolutely no desire to eat 'em!
Most of you are now understandably concerned at this point and are starting to pull out your Alien Impostor Detection Kit, but I assure you, I am still me. At least that is what I keep telling myself....
I really believe that the Good Lord is kind and has kept up the blessing of allowing me to think food is yucky right now. Except salad. I am really hungry for a good salad...
AND I cleaned my house !!!! OK, just the downstairs, and I didn't mop, but Hey! I cleaned my house!!!! (this statement deserves the extra exclamation points and rotten sentence structure) Cary even got in the swing of things and shampooed the carpet.
AND I -yes I - cleaned out my fridge! I asked hubby when the last time he cleaned it out was and he said ~~~~ well ~~~~~~~ maybe it's best just to leave what he said to your imagination. I will only reveal that I think I saw something run for cover behind what I assumed was old feta cheese.
The only bummer part is that I am on a completely liquid diet until my next procedure which is scheduled for 2 days before Thanksgiving. Kinda sucky, but if it increases the chances of this third balloon animal adventure being successful, I'll be thrilllllled. I am actually looking forward to eating a big salad. Weird huh. Especially since the hubby made the kids brownies tonight for movie night and I am smelling them. The REALLLYYYY weird part? I am happy just to smell them. I have absolutely no desire to eat 'em!
Most of you are now understandably concerned at this point and are starting to pull out your Alien Impostor Detection Kit, but I assure you, I am still me. At least that is what I keep telling myself....
I really believe that the Good Lord is kind and has kept up the blessing of allowing me to think food is yucky right now. Except salad. I am really hungry for a good salad...
I Am The Humanoid Known As Stacey. Obey Me.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
*sigh... it looks like MORE balloon animals are in my future. The dilation that was just done was only marginally successful. The doctor was only able to get it about a half of a millimeter bigger. He took out more staples and stretched it as much as he dared, but he said it was starting to tear too much (read bleeding) so he stopped. He is the best at what he does, so I trust him, but oh man I am just a bit disappointed. I have the next one scheduled for the Tues before Thanksgiving, which means I will be on a clear liquids diet for said holiday. Apple juice anyone? :)
Right now I feel a bit gassy.... Now I know what a baby feels like when new parents insist it is not a smile ~ just gas ~ which if you think about it would explain A LOT of my pictures...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
long time no blog...
I really have just been living my life, enjoying my boys and getting out and about as much as I can! My birthday itself kinda sucked because I had to go see my primary care doctor. He checked out my feeding tube and ordered an ultrasound to just take a peek inside to see what might be going on. No needles though, so it wasn't too bad. Just a lot of travel time.
The Friday after my birthday was the fun part. I posted the whole video on face book, but here are a few image grabs from it...
I really have just been living my life, enjoying my boys and getting out and about as much as I can! My birthday itself kinda sucked because I had to go see my primary care doctor. He checked out my feeding tube and ordered an ultrasound to just take a peek inside to see what might be going on. No needles though, so it wasn't too bad. Just a lot of travel time.
The Friday after my birthday was the fun part. I posted the whole video on face book, but here are a few image grabs from it...
looking SO innocent and sweet....
can you tell what they are doing?...
that's right~ they are covering their momma in silly string!!!
It was really fun...
I got my wedding ring fixed for my main present,
and I couldn't be happier...
and I couldn't be happier...
...and the boys sprayed on...
I really did have a great birthday.
42 years old and proud of it! I earned EARNED every wrinkle!!!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
OK, I think we have this not getting enough calories thing licked. Since the flu, I have been having a really hard time going back up to the full amount I was supposed to be receiving via feeding tube. Bloating, distention, all that nice stuff.The answer was simple! 2 cans at night and 2 cans during the day! TADA!!! fixed. Jo Marie is brilliant. I should have all my energy levels back to full capacity in no time.
I am having a bit more of a problem because I think my feeding tube site is infected. I have a doctor appointment to check it out next Wednesday. I get blood tests done tomorrow. oh joy.... more needles... hope I'm better hydrated this time...*sigh...
I am having a bit more of a problem because I think my feeding tube site is infected. I have a doctor appointment to check it out next Wednesday. I get blood tests done tomorrow. oh joy.... more needles... hope I'm better hydrated this time...*sigh...
Friday, August 27, 2010
OK, I was doing SO well.... Then I got the flu. Just a quick note to all those who have redone plumbing inside. NOT a good idea to get the flu. I am not feeling sick anymore, but I am pretty wiped out.
I went to Back to School Night for the boys, only saw 2 of the 6 teachers I needed to see and was just too pooped to do more ( for those wondering - yes I still only have 4 boys but 3 of those boys have special ed teachers or resource teachers as well as general ed teachers). I sent Daniel to see 2 more teachers to take notes, and did a phone visit with one more. I missed Jonahs general education teacher completely. (sigh)
This morning I went to see Daniel deliver his campaign speech (he is running for school treasurer) and now, if you will excuse me, I think I will go take a nap now....
I went to Back to School Night for the boys, only saw 2 of the 6 teachers I needed to see and was just too pooped to do more ( for those wondering - yes I still only have 4 boys but 3 of those boys have special ed teachers or resource teachers as well as general ed teachers). I sent Daniel to see 2 more teachers to take notes, and did a phone visit with one more. I missed Jonahs general education teacher completely. (sigh)
This morning I went to see Daniel deliver his campaign speech (he is running for school treasurer) and now, if you will excuse me, I think I will go take a nap now....
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
hmmm, remember way back when I said about half of the patients with EC develop lactose intolerance? Well Hooray! I am in that half. ( oh joy...) I switched to lactose free milk in moderation and it makes the world of difference to my tummy.
I am actually doing really great right now. Two days in a row I have done morning routine, gotten the kids off to school, picked them up, and did all their homework and therapy with them all by myself!
But then comes the fun part. Nathan is LOVING the book The BFG I am reading to him for books and stories. Jonah and Ben are just loving having the mom bedtime routine back in place. Daniel is reading Holes and I get so tickled because he begs to read "just one more chapter Mom PLEEEEEASE....". I love to see that excitement for reading.
Wish me luck to keep up this good streak. By the end of the day I am pretty exhausted, but hey, even when I was 100% well, I was pretty tired by the time I crawled into bed each night.
Its all good. I just love finally seeing marked improvement ~ well other than the not eating thing, but hey, that will come in time and I have the feeding tube to make sure I get nutrition, so how can I complain :).
I am actually doing really great right now. Two days in a row I have done morning routine, gotten the kids off to school, picked them up, and did all their homework and therapy with them all by myself!
But then comes the fun part. Nathan is LOVING the book The BFG I am reading to him for books and stories. Jonah and Ben are just loving having the mom bedtime routine back in place. Daniel is reading Holes and I get so tickled because he begs to read "just one more chapter Mom PLEEEEEASE....". I love to see that excitement for reading.
Wish me luck to keep up this good streak. By the end of the day I am pretty exhausted, but hey, even when I was 100% well, I was pretty tired by the time I crawled into bed each night.
Its all good. I just love finally seeing marked improvement ~ well other than the not eating thing, but hey, that will come in time and I have the feeding tube to make sure I get nutrition, so how can I complain :).
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Working through the pains in my back, I think I have not been walking enough. Gotta get those muscles up to speed. I only feel them when I am up and about or sitting in a chair that does not give adequate lumbar support. I also think I need to improve my posture...I slump forward too much when my stomaphagus and innards hurt.
I just liked the bum on the top right...J-Lo got nothing on this guy!
(I do wonder about my strange and convoluted thought patterns ... but only sometimes...)
(I do wonder about my strange and convoluted thought patterns ... but only sometimes...)
Monday, July 19, 2010
I was so excited! I actually ran some errands this weekend ( ok walked really slow, but whose counting...). Cary drove of course, but just getting out of the house was wonderful. I was a bit done in though afterward but hey, I will take what I can get.
I REALLY tried to make it to church Sunday, but my body just plain vetoed that one. I am going to try again next week.This time I am really going to take it easy on the weekend so I can have all that energy on the Sabbath.
I am getting better and better every day now and seriously, the thing that hurts the worst is the wound in my neck, so that is a HUGE improvement over chest tube and drain holes.
I REALLY tried to make it to church Sunday, but my body just plain vetoed that one. I am going to try again next week.This time I am really going to take it easy on the weekend so I can have all that energy on the Sabbath.
I am getting better and better every day now and seriously, the thing that hurts the worst is the wound in my neck, so that is a HUGE improvement over chest tube and drain holes.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
still boring.... HOORAAYYY!!!! I have an appointment on Thursday and understand that at least one of my drains will be removed. Jo Marie (remember, she's the surgeon's nurse practitioner) said they might wait a week before they take the other one out. Woo hoo!! then there will be only the feeding tube.
Ok so maybe my drains aren't THIS big...
Sunday, June 27, 2010
wayyyyy too much excitement...
I just love to hate that old curse, " May you live in interesting times" , with the idea that famine, flood and pestilence are all very interesting. My idea of the perfect wish for someone would be, " May you live a boring life". Quick , somebody wish that for me!!!!
My wound vac (a really cool piece of technology that uses a vacuum to help big wounds heal faster) got a blockage at 2 am on Saturday morning and I spent the rest of the night trying to resolve that. I finally called the home health care nurse at about 5 am, and she said she would send someone out in the AM to change everything, just to turn it off for now. I had dealt with her before and I trusted her. I did what I was told, but the on call nurse for Saturday (I had not had dealings with her before) did not want to come out to help me. She kept insisting that she would just walk us through changing the canister~ when Cary and I both knew just by the process of elimination the canister was not the problem. Both Kim and Donna, the nurses that came out to my home were lovely, but we were both sort of frustrated by Gloria. Being an on call nurse means by definition, covering any problems that arise~ am I too far off base on that one?! grrrrr....
Anyway, long story short, we were fine just letting it be until Monday as I had a followup appointment with Dr. Soukiasian, and we knew he would handle this no problem.
Well, then about 10:00 am, I was mid dose giving myself medicine through my feeding tube, when it got unimaginably clogged. I was next to tears as I had tried to be so @###!!##T&** careful about flushing it, even going so far as to flush it whenever I took a sip of water. That way I knew I was WAY over the minimum amount of before and after each dose of meds, before and after each feeding and 4 x a day on top of that. This was a bit more serious, so I called the home health care nurse again, and she advised me to go to the local urgent care. We both were not comfortable with that, so we called the on call dr . for Dr Soukiasian, Dr Parker. She told us to come into the ER and in the meantime try to put Diet Coke (of all things) into the tube on the drive up. Apparently it sometimes helps to breakup blockages. Who knew?!
Well, as we were getting ready to leave, Cary called poor little Haley bug (she took this weekend to go on a river rafting trip),and bless her heart, she cut the trip short and immediately headed here to watch the boys for us. And she was so sweet and cheerful about it!!! ( people - never wonder why I love these kids so dang much!!!) Just as we hung up, our home teacher called us and asked what he could do for us (THANK YOU QUINTON for listening to that little voice!!!!!). He and his sweet family watched the boys until Haley could make it the nearly 4 hours back from Bakersfield.
Long story short, new feeding tube put in,wound vac taken off and wet to dry dressing applied and Cary is now trained how to do that new kind of dressing. I was so proud! He didn't faint or get queezy once!!! I have to admit, we've both kinda toughened up a bit since all this started... I could be wrong, but I really think we are tough enough now and am really praying for that boring life to start..... any ....second .....now....
My wound vac (a really cool piece of technology that uses a vacuum to help big wounds heal faster) got a blockage at 2 am on Saturday morning and I spent the rest of the night trying to resolve that. I finally called the home health care nurse at about 5 am, and she said she would send someone out in the AM to change everything, just to turn it off for now. I had dealt with her before and I trusted her. I did what I was told, but the on call nurse for Saturday (I had not had dealings with her before) did not want to come out to help me. She kept insisting that she would just walk us through changing the canister~ when Cary and I both knew just by the process of elimination the canister was not the problem. Both Kim and Donna, the nurses that came out to my home were lovely, but we were both sort of frustrated by Gloria. Being an on call nurse means by definition, covering any problems that arise~ am I too far off base on that one?! grrrrr....
Anyway, long story short, we were fine just letting it be until Monday as I had a followup appointment with Dr. Soukiasian, and we knew he would handle this no problem.
Well, then about 10:00 am, I was mid dose giving myself medicine through my feeding tube, when it got unimaginably clogged. I was next to tears as I had tried to be so @###!!##T&** careful about flushing it, even going so far as to flush it whenever I took a sip of water. That way I knew I was WAY over the minimum amount of before and after each dose of meds, before and after each feeding and 4 x a day on top of that. This was a bit more serious, so I called the home health care nurse again, and she advised me to go to the local urgent care. We both were not comfortable with that, so we called the on call dr . for Dr Soukiasian, Dr Parker. She told us to come into the ER and in the meantime try to put Diet Coke (of all things) into the tube on the drive up. Apparently it sometimes helps to breakup blockages. Who knew?!
Well, as we were getting ready to leave, Cary called poor little Haley bug (she took this weekend to go on a river rafting trip),and bless her heart, she cut the trip short and immediately headed here to watch the boys for us. And she was so sweet and cheerful about it!!! ( people - never wonder why I love these kids so dang much!!!) Just as we hung up, our home teacher called us and asked what he could do for us (THANK YOU QUINTON for listening to that little voice!!!!!). He and his sweet family watched the boys until Haley could make it the nearly 4 hours back from Bakersfield.
Long story short, new feeding tube put in,wound vac taken off and wet to dry dressing applied and Cary is now trained how to do that new kind of dressing. I was so proud! He didn't faint or get queezy once!!! I have to admit, we've both kinda toughened up a bit since all this started... I could be wrong, but I really think we are tough enough now and am really praying for that boring life to start..... any ....second .....now....
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
again a short one, recovery is progressing nicely. I am determined to get better as quickly as I can and set daily goals to make sure that happens. Stuff like take all my meds religiously, walk every day , do my breathing exercises, and be anal about keeping wound sites clean. Then I set longer term goals.
One goal is to take Jonah and the other boys to Legoland. He has wanted to go there since his class visited the aquarium on a field trip.
Another longer term goal is to get healed so I can go back to work. A few of you might know that the day my fingerprints and background check went through to start work as a special education aide, was the same day I was told I had cancer. Sweet Judy from the school district has been holding my job for me ever since.
In the hospital, my goal was more simple. Go home to my boys. I had a pic of them as well as Carly, Haley and Aaron in my line of sight in my room. That was my inspiration, especially during the hard parts.
I am a huge believer in goals. Long term, but more importantly short term, daily do-able ones to help me get to the biggies.
others might be better at doing this with out the goals and that is ok too. I just happen to be one of those that need direction to move forward with purpose, ~ otherwise I might head into lump-ville and that is not an option. I have been given a second shot at life and I have no intention of wasting it.
One goal is to take Jonah and the other boys to Legoland. He has wanted to go there since his class visited the aquarium on a field trip.
Another longer term goal is to get healed so I can go back to work. A few of you might know that the day my fingerprints and background check went through to start work as a special education aide, was the same day I was told I had cancer. Sweet Judy from the school district has been holding my job for me ever since.
In the hospital, my goal was more simple. Go home to my boys. I had a pic of them as well as Carly, Haley and Aaron in my line of sight in my room. That was my inspiration, especially during the hard parts.
I am a huge believer in goals. Long term, but more importantly short term, daily do-able ones to help me get to the biggies.
others might be better at doing this with out the goals and that is ok too. I just happen to be one of those that need direction to move forward with purpose, ~ otherwise I might head into lump-ville and that is not an option. I have been given a second shot at life and I have no intention of wasting it.
Friday, June 18, 2010
My work here is done... Guest Blogger signing out
All I can say about this is that when your hospital room starts to look like a dorm room at the end of finals week, it's time to get your butt home! :oP
And so she did.
Stacey was released from Cedar Sinai and left yesterday afternoon around 3. She is thrilled. Cary is thrilled. Her boys are thrilled. Her dog is thrilled. It's a good thing!
She slept well last night and sounds strong and in control this morning. She will have home healthcare nurses coming in several times a week to check/change dressings, assist with questions, assess her situation, etc. so she's in good hands.
That being said, she’s back in the saddle and my work here is done. From now on, the only posts I’ll add will be pranks (I do know her password). ::Evil Chuckle::
Thanks to all of you for your kind thoughts and prayers.
Guest Blogger - out.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Mostly Technical Today...
Stacey had her first really great day yesterday! No medical crises, no serious pain spikes, great energy and enough concentration to read for a while. All in all a fabulous day!
She felt good enough that she asked me to dedicate the contents of this post to information that will be useful to those who are searching for more information about the very new procedure she had done. Her surgery is new enough that there is not a name for it yet and therefore, finding information is still tough. Though there is more specific information she will list later (names of doctors and relevant staff involved and her opinion of them, more detailed info on specific events, etc.), this post is designed to be first a placeholder to capture the main events and her status throughout and a reminder to her when she is ready to go back and fill in more details.
Stacey has been working on the following list of events for the past couple of days as her energy permitted:
Friday (June 4, 2010)
The surgery was broken into two parts. The purpose of Part 1 was to mobilize the stomach and verify that her condition would allow the esophogectomy. Specifically the surgeon:
Saturday (June 5, 2010)
Stacey was released from the hospital Saturday afternoon and travelled 2 hours to her home. When asked, the surgeon said he does this because patients tend to have better morale when allowed to go home. This may generally be true but I'll bet most of his patients don't have 4 little boys and an exuberant dog. Things did not go well.
Stacey (in her words) "felt like crap!" The first thing that happened when she walked through the door was her dog, who adores her, jumped right up onto her thoroughly savaged stomach. Extremely painful! Once she was settled in a reclining chair (pretty much for the entire weekend!) the pain meds didn't work as they were supposed to and while also running a slight fever all weekend, her pain was poorly managed throughout her home time.
Sunday (June 6, 2010)
One note you might want to be aware of is to ask the doctor to prescribe plenty of meds! Because her dose was high, the pharmacist filled an inadequate prescription initially (this was not the hospital pharmacy) and Cary had to call for a refill. Instead of cooperating, he was told he had to wait until Monday to refill it. Why? Because their insurance wouldn't pay to have it refilled for another 24 hours. The cost of the prescription? $13.49!! Needless to say, Cary insisted on the refill immediately and paid out of pocket.
Monday (June 7, 2010)
Part 2 of the surgery was really the main event. Stacey and Cary left their house around 2:30am to be at Admitting by 5am. Stacey wasn't in great shape, needless to say. Stacey will list names and information about staff to facilitate search engine hits once she is feeling up to it.
One note: Stacey made it her goal to get out of bed and take a short walk, per doctor's orders, Monday evening. It was painful and the nurses were stunned but she did it!
Her comments about the day of surgery:
Tuesday was a rough day. She was still learning to cough and wound up with something lodged in her throat that she needed to cough up. She spent over 6.5 hours(!) trying to dislodge whatever was there before she was finally successful. Very painful and completely exhausting!
That was typical of the downside. On the upside, Stacey was able to takes walks twice on Tuesday - each time more than doubling her previous distance. She is very, very determined to get better and go home!
Wednesday (June 9, 2010)
Stacey pushed herself hard and when Dr. Soukiasian came through during early morning rounds about 7am, he pronounced her no longer critical and released her to a regular room. She was moved around 3pm when a bed opened up for her.
Wednesday, she successfully began her daily regimen of 3 walks/day. Once again, the distance on each walk increased, though it was necessary for her to be accompanied by a couple of people for support and tube/cord/IV management and she stopped to rest frequently. She was also put on nutrition through her feeding tube.
Thursday (June 10, 2010)
Thursday they removed Stacey's A line which monitored her blood pressure and pulse. A hard day with no particular high or low lights while she continues with her general improvement.
Friday (June 11, 2010)
Not a good day. Stacey says: "Sucky Day!"
Early in the morning the nurses began to notice that her heart rate was spiking and hovering around 147-148 bpm. That isn't unexpected and had happened a few times before. This time, however, her blood pressure wasn't strong enough to give her the meds that they had been using to control her heart rate. The blood pressure could not be raised enough to administer the heart meds because it was being depressed by her pain medications. To that point, she had been given ongoing pain meds and also had a button she could press whenever she needed a boost. She used it frequently as she was instructed to do. Eventually, the doctor advised that she would have to lose the pain button and the ongoing pain meds and switch to periodic injections. Stacey was very apprehensive and her pain levels soared for the rest of the day. However, it worked and they were finally able to stabilize her BP and administer the heart meds. As a side note: They removed her feeding tube since it didn't appear to be aiding her recovery and may have been contributing to the problem.
In all of this, the overnight nurse (Francis) noticed that she was smelling something 'off'. Blood work showed elevated levels of white blood cells and the surgeon, his fellow, his residents, his nurse all spent a good portion of the day figuring out whether it was an infection, a normal side effect of a deflated lung and a lung half filled with gunk (both as a result of the surgery), a leak or if there was something else going on. They remained alert and working but unalarmed. But, this led into Saturday...
Saturday (June 12, 2010)
Overnight, doctors decided to perform a CAT scan to see if they could isolate any source of infection or see a leak - both things that might raise her white blood count. This had been completed by the time I arrived at 3am.
After reviewing the results and seeing nothing of concern, Dr. S ordered a swallow test. This involved her swallowing a clear chemical and having x-ray techs capture the actual swallow and tracking the fluid through her new interior architecture. Dr. S and his cadre of MDs watched what looked like a real time x-ray movie of the liquid going through her throat, her stomach and exiting while discussing how perfectly everything was working. Unfortunately, it was all very painful for Stacey as she needed to be rolled from side to side to get the views they needed. With 3 chest tubes (2 located on her right side and 1 on the left), any turning to the side is painful.
However, the results here didn't offer any real insight into the cause of possible infection. Dr. S decided that he needed to look at her neck incision again and the drain high inserted below her clavicle. I was asked to leave the x-ray room while he opened the neck wound. It's too near the carotid artery to be able to give her anesthesia so she had to undergo this without any numbing effect. It's pretty hard to see it and not feel aweful for her. The wound is just under 4" long and about 1" deep. Very, very painful! Once she was back in her room, the surgical residents opened the incision where her drain is inserted, though this time they were able to give her drugs before hand so she wasn't in as much pain. The net result of all of this is that there was a tiny bit of infection at the incision site (think about the tiny bit of pus under a skinned knee scab... ) but they didn't think that was the cause. The mystery continued.
That was the morning. The afternoon was better. She was able to get enough pain medicine that she finally was able to relax a bit and rest. She hadn't been very successful in doing so up to this point since the Friday surgery! The afternoon was spent catching up on meds, respiratory treatments, etc that had been interrupted for all the brouhaha.
One very positive note: Dr. S prescribed 30cc (1 oz) of water by mouth every hour. He'll be looking at her fluid output based on this change and if everything looks good, she might have her nasal gastric tube (the tube that goes through her nose into her stomach) removed today (Monday) or tomorrow!
Sunday, (June 13, 2010)
This was the first "good" day Stacey has experienced since she went in for surgery last Friday. The mystery of the elevated white blood count is believed to be solved. Between small amounts of infection at the wound sites mentioned above and a bowel infection they found, they think they've got this whipped. The bowel infection is being treated with antibiotics as is the infection caused by the wounds. She continued to walk and increase her distance, drink her water, reduce her reliance on pain meds (a bit). She still has quite a lot of pain but she was able, for the first time, to concentrate on something distracting for more than a minute or two. She spent a couple of hours reading in the afternoon! She also looked much more relaxed and animated. Her energy level is getting noticeably better and she is able to talk on the phone for several minutes at a time.
It was a good day!
Monday, (June 14, 2010)
I'm heading to the hospital now. As of midnight when I left her, she was settling in for the night and looked as if she would sleep well. I hope that proved to be the case...
She felt good enough that she asked me to dedicate the contents of this post to information that will be useful to those who are searching for more information about the very new procedure she had done. Her surgery is new enough that there is not a name for it yet and therefore, finding information is still tough. Though there is more specific information she will list later (names of doctors and relevant staff involved and her opinion of them, more detailed info on specific events, etc.), this post is designed to be first a placeholder to capture the main events and her status throughout and a reminder to her when she is ready to go back and fill in more details.
Stacey has been working on the following list of events for the past couple of days as her energy permitted:
Friday (June 4, 2010)
The surgery was broken into two parts. The purpose of Part 1 was to mobilize the stomach and verify that her condition would allow the esophogectomy. Specifically the surgeon:
- Separated the stomach muscles from their connective tissues
- Laproscopically inserted an endoscope (camera) to survey the terrain
- Cauterized the blood vessels around the stomach to minimize bleeding during the main surgery
Saturday (June 5, 2010)
Stacey was released from the hospital Saturday afternoon and travelled 2 hours to her home. When asked, the surgeon said he does this because patients tend to have better morale when allowed to go home. This may generally be true but I'll bet most of his patients don't have 4 little boys and an exuberant dog. Things did not go well.
Stacey (in her words) "felt like crap!" The first thing that happened when she walked through the door was her dog, who adores her, jumped right up onto her thoroughly savaged stomach. Extremely painful! Once she was settled in a reclining chair (pretty much for the entire weekend!) the pain meds didn't work as they were supposed to and while also running a slight fever all weekend, her pain was poorly managed throughout her home time.
Sunday (June 6, 2010)
One note you might want to be aware of is to ask the doctor to prescribe plenty of meds! Because her dose was high, the pharmacist filled an inadequate prescription initially (this was not the hospital pharmacy) and Cary had to call for a refill. Instead of cooperating, he was told he had to wait until Monday to refill it. Why? Because their insurance wouldn't pay to have it refilled for another 24 hours. The cost of the prescription? $13.49!! Needless to say, Cary insisted on the refill immediately and paid out of pocket.
Monday (June 7, 2010)
Part 2 of the surgery was really the main event. Stacey and Cary left their house around 2:30am to be at Admitting by 5am. Stacey wasn't in great shape, needless to say. Stacey will list names and information about staff to facilitate search engine hits once she is feeling up to it.
One note: Stacey made it her goal to get out of bed and take a short walk, per doctor's orders, Monday evening. It was painful and the nurses were stunned but she did it!
Her comments about the day of surgery:
- Woke up and remembers being in lots of pain
- Doesn't have many memories of the day (before or after surgery)
- Barely remembers her time in ICU but recalls that nearly every nurse was great
Tuesday was a rough day. She was still learning to cough and wound up with something lodged in her throat that she needed to cough up. She spent over 6.5 hours(!) trying to dislodge whatever was there before she was finally successful. Very painful and completely exhausting!
That was typical of the downside. On the upside, Stacey was able to takes walks twice on Tuesday - each time more than doubling her previous distance. She is very, very determined to get better and go home!
Wednesday (June 9, 2010)
Stacey pushed herself hard and when Dr. Soukiasian came through during early morning rounds about 7am, he pronounced her no longer critical and released her to a regular room. She was moved around 3pm when a bed opened up for her.
Wednesday, she successfully began her daily regimen of 3 walks/day. Once again, the distance on each walk increased, though it was necessary for her to be accompanied by a couple of people for support and tube/cord/IV management and she stopped to rest frequently. She was also put on nutrition through her feeding tube.
Thursday (June 10, 2010)
Thursday they removed Stacey's A line which monitored her blood pressure and pulse. A hard day with no particular high or low lights while she continues with her general improvement.
Friday (June 11, 2010)
Not a good day. Stacey says: "Sucky Day!"
Early in the morning the nurses began to notice that her heart rate was spiking and hovering around 147-148 bpm. That isn't unexpected and had happened a few times before. This time, however, her blood pressure wasn't strong enough to give her the meds that they had been using to control her heart rate. The blood pressure could not be raised enough to administer the heart meds because it was being depressed by her pain medications. To that point, she had been given ongoing pain meds and also had a button she could press whenever she needed a boost. She used it frequently as she was instructed to do. Eventually, the doctor advised that she would have to lose the pain button and the ongoing pain meds and switch to periodic injections. Stacey was very apprehensive and her pain levels soared for the rest of the day. However, it worked and they were finally able to stabilize her BP and administer the heart meds. As a side note: They removed her feeding tube since it didn't appear to be aiding her recovery and may have been contributing to the problem.
In all of this, the overnight nurse (Francis) noticed that she was smelling something 'off'. Blood work showed elevated levels of white blood cells and the surgeon, his fellow, his residents, his nurse all spent a good portion of the day figuring out whether it was an infection, a normal side effect of a deflated lung and a lung half filled with gunk (both as a result of the surgery), a leak or if there was something else going on. They remained alert and working but unalarmed. But, this led into Saturday...
Saturday (June 12, 2010)
Overnight, doctors decided to perform a CAT scan to see if they could isolate any source of infection or see a leak - both things that might raise her white blood count. This had been completed by the time I arrived at 3am.
After reviewing the results and seeing nothing of concern, Dr. S ordered a swallow test. This involved her swallowing a clear chemical and having x-ray techs capture the actual swallow and tracking the fluid through her new interior architecture. Dr. S and his cadre of MDs watched what looked like a real time x-ray movie of the liquid going through her throat, her stomach and exiting while discussing how perfectly everything was working. Unfortunately, it was all very painful for Stacey as she needed to be rolled from side to side to get the views they needed. With 3 chest tubes (2 located on her right side and 1 on the left), any turning to the side is painful.
However, the results here didn't offer any real insight into the cause of possible infection. Dr. S decided that he needed to look at her neck incision again and the drain high inserted below her clavicle. I was asked to leave the x-ray room while he opened the neck wound. It's too near the carotid artery to be able to give her anesthesia so she had to undergo this without any numbing effect. It's pretty hard to see it and not feel aweful for her. The wound is just under 4" long and about 1" deep. Very, very painful! Once she was back in her room, the surgical residents opened the incision where her drain is inserted, though this time they were able to give her drugs before hand so she wasn't in as much pain. The net result of all of this is that there was a tiny bit of infection at the incision site (think about the tiny bit of pus under a skinned knee scab... ) but they didn't think that was the cause. The mystery continued.
That was the morning. The afternoon was better. She was able to get enough pain medicine that she finally was able to relax a bit and rest. She hadn't been very successful in doing so up to this point since the Friday surgery! The afternoon was spent catching up on meds, respiratory treatments, etc that had been interrupted for all the brouhaha.
One very positive note: Dr. S prescribed 30cc (1 oz) of water by mouth every hour. He'll be looking at her fluid output based on this change and if everything looks good, she might have her nasal gastric tube (the tube that goes through her nose into her stomach) removed today (Monday) or tomorrow!
Sunday, (June 13, 2010)
This was the first "good" day Stacey has experienced since she went in for surgery last Friday. The mystery of the elevated white blood count is believed to be solved. Between small amounts of infection at the wound sites mentioned above and a bowel infection they found, they think they've got this whipped. The bowel infection is being treated with antibiotics as is the infection caused by the wounds. She continued to walk and increase her distance, drink her water, reduce her reliance on pain meds (a bit). She still has quite a lot of pain but she was able, for the first time, to concentrate on something distracting for more than a minute or two. She spent a couple of hours reading in the afternoon! She also looked much more relaxed and animated. Her energy level is getting noticeably better and she is able to talk on the phone for several minutes at a time.
It was a good day!
Monday, (June 14, 2010)
I'm heading to the hospital now. As of midnight when I left her, she was settling in for the night and looked as if she would sleep well. I hope that proved to be the case...
Thursday, June 10, 2010
100% Cancer Free!!!
It's official! The lab results came back yesterday on the lymph nodes removed during surgery on Monday and they are completely clear of cancer. Stacey does not have cancer!
As for recovery, she is making remarkable progress. Dr. Soukiasian came by about 7am Wednesday morning and pronounced her no longer critical. He released her from ICU barely more than 36 hours from admitting her to ICU. This is no doubt due to the great job he and his team did but no small measure of this success is owed directly to Stacey's determination to do everything the doctor has asked to letter perfection.
Right now we are on a "tube- and wire-removal countdown". Monday she had 8 tubes and numerous wires connected. She's down to 5 tubes and no permanent wires. She'll be home before you know it!
As for recovery, she is making remarkable progress. Dr. Soukiasian came by about 7am Wednesday morning and pronounced her no longer critical. He released her from ICU barely more than 36 hours from admitting her to ICU. This is no doubt due to the great job he and his team did but no small measure of this success is owed directly to Stacey's determination to do everything the doctor has asked to letter perfection.
Right now we are on a "tube- and wire-removal countdown". Monday she had 8 tubes and numerous wires connected. She's down to 5 tubes and no permanent wires. She'll be home before you know it!
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Stacey on her road to recovery...
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